I know drug topics here are typically about party drugs, but I figured I’d post anyway.
I’m interested in the efficacy of antidepressants, and whether it’s worth my while to go to a doctor to obtain them. I already know that the research conclusions are somewhat mixed, so I’m doing the reverse of what I’d usually do by seeking anecdotal evidence. By the very nature of anecdotal evidence, posting this topic is probably an act of futility. It does serve to get something off my chest though, if nothing else.
Back story: Approaching mid twenties, perpetually single. I’ve been pretty down for a while because of this… It’s hard being in your twenties and not feeling at least a little defective when you’ve never had any kind of intimacy with anyone. This part has been going on for years, and it’s perpetuating. I’ve lost count of how many people I’ve alienated, but I doubt any of them hate me as much as I do.
I had a moment of clarity a while ago and realised that, a handful of people notwithstanding, I know little about any of my friends beyond their name and the superficial stuff you discover about a person on social media sites.
Today I learned that the company I work for is likely to be liquidated in the next few weeks, and my coworkers and I have been made part time effective next week. As far as I’m concerned, there couldn’t be a worse time for this because a lot of companies currently have hiring freezes in place.
We have social security in Australia, but I have liquid assets (my home loan savings) which are reasonably substantial in my view (and in the view of our social security system). As it stands, the worst case scenario is that I would have to go between three and four months before receiving any assistance.
I’m hoping it doesn’t come to that, but I haven’t had any luck finding jobs that I’m qualified for yet. My home savings are literally the only thing I have to show for myself, so it’s upsetting to know that in the worst case it will be eroded to some extent.
Additionally, my coworkers and I have not received superannuation payments (superannuation is basically a pension plan) over the course of our employment. More fool me for not kicking up a shit about it earlier, but it’s too late now.
The liquidator and secured creditors are paid first when a company enters liquidation, before employees, and there’s over 25k of debt on the company’s credit card account. In terms of assets though, I suspect the most valuable is the company car (my boss’ 1999 Celica, probably worth 5k at most). I know the car and contents of our office isn’t going to wipe out None of us are going to see our superannuation.
So yeah, now I’m stressed about my financial position.
Have any of you done the whole depression -> treatment -> recovery process? Was it effective?
tl;dr: Forever alone, soon to be out of a job when quite a few companies allegedly have hiring freezes, and stressed/anxious as a result.